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This might sound a bit strange and you might not believe me, considering some of the other things I’ve written about, but I think this is going to be the most difficult post I’ve ever written. As of today, Wednesdays at Becca Blogs It Out will be known as Weigh In Wednesday. I’ve shared private details about our IVF journey and my mental health, but being completely open about my weight loss journey is new to me. And much more scary.
I already talked a little bit about my weight issues in How Long Can I Call It “Baby Weight”?, but now it’s time to get serious!
I decided that 2018 would be the year that I lost 5st. I made a pretty good start, too, and lost 1st 10lb fairly quickly, using Exante meal replacement products. I previously lost 3st with Exante, to get my BMI low enough to be referred for fertility treatment, and managed to keep it off until I fell pregnant with the twins. I did that by being careful about how I reintroduced food to my diet and about what food I reintroduced. Losing weight, with any diet, is the easy bit, really. At least, it is when you compare it to the maintenance bit afterwards!
So, I stand by what I said about it being absolutely possible to maintain the weight lost on a very low calorie diet (VLCD) long term. Unfortunately, that’s not what I’ve done this year.
I’m going to get the excuses out of the way now. I’ve struggled a lot with my mental health this year and, when that happens, I eat. When I start to get my mental health under control, I have more control over my relationship with food. Also, the twins keep me really busy. I’m sure any mums reading this will be able to relate to that. Life just got in the way of my weight loss goals. I realised today that I hadn’t weighed myself in over a month. I was kidding myself, letting myself think that I was maintaining the weight I’d already lost. I was not maintaining. I have done nothing but eat for over a month and I’ve gained back 14lb of what I’d lost. I shouldn’t be surprised, but I am very disappointed in myself.
So today, I’m officially back on track and I’ll be posting weekly updates to keep me accountable. I’ll also be posting regular updates on Instagram, so I’d love it if you’d follow my journey, to give me some encouragement.
I’ll be weighing myself every Wednesday morning and recording my measurements every 4 weeks. I’m going to share my weight with you (that’s why this post is so scary) and I’ll share my inch-loss, but I’m not brave enough to share my starting measurements with you. I don’t know why it’s more scary to share my measurements than my weight, but it definitely is. Maybe it’s because the number on the scales doesn’t really matter. It doesn’t really mean anything. Two women can be the same height and weight and still be different shapes and sizes. My starting measurements would tell you much more about my size than my weight ever could. To be honest, I know my size shouldn’t matter anyway. I should be writing about body positivity and loving the body I’ve got. But, unfortunately, my size does matter to me and I need to do something about it. For both my self confidence and my health.
Date – 18/7/2018
Weight – 15st 11lb (221lb)
Today is day one of week one and I’m ready. I hope you’ll follow my journey and cheer me along! Check back same time next Wednesday!