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Snappy title for a blog post, right? Sorry. I couldn’t think of a better one. But it’s a question I really need an answer for, so bear with me.
I guess I should start by telling you what usually works for me. Writing. When I started this blog, it was partly because I wanted to talk about my mental health, because writing about it helps me work through it. And I’ve written about my mental health a lot and it has helped.
I love the messages I get from people, telling me that reading about my struggles with mental health has helped them in some way, however small. I love the thought that talking/writing about my mental health might encourage other people to open up in ways they haven’t been able to open up about their mental health before.
For a long while, writing about my mental health and has really helped me manage my depression and anxiety. Like writing about it, somehow got it out of my head and lessened the burden.
But what do you do, when what you usually do stops working?
If you’re a regular reader (thank you, by the way), you may have noticed that I haven’t posted as much so far this year, as I did last year. I lost my blogging mojo and I’ve spent the last 3 months trying to find it again.
Writing about my mental health just stopped being as easy as it used to be
I’m really struggling with my mental health at the moment. Especially the last few weeks, since my birthday. But, if I’m honest, it started before that. And, usually, I’d write about it and bore you all with what was going on in my head, to help me work through it. But I haven’t even been able to do that.
I don’t feel ready to talk about what I’m struggling with, exactly. But I asked Twitter what I should do when I don’t even what to think about my mental health, let alone write about it, and the answer…?
Do it anyway.
Probably good advice, to be fair. Fake it until you making it, right? So that’s what I’m doing. And I’m sorry if this post is a bit pointless and I’m sorry if I’m rambling and not making any sense. But I just wanted to write again. Write anything. Just to get some of the words that are in my head out on to the screen and to publish… something. Anything. Something real and honest and open. Something “me”. Because that’s what this blog was supposed to be. And I think, somewhere along the way, in my efforts to monetise my blog, I lost that a little bit.
Don’t get me wrong. It’s lovely to be making a little bit of money, but this was never supposed to be just about making money, which is why you don’t see ads in my posts and I very rarely use affiliate links, unless it’s something I genuinely love. I’m just not a very good salesperson and I don’t want to force that and ruin the feel of my blog, for the sake of a few extra pennies.
What I really want, is to write stuff that people want to read. To talk to people about things that matter to me and that, hopefully, matter to them as well.
I know that writing about my mental health won’t fix it
Not on its own. I know that I need to ask for help and work through the struggles that I’m having. I know that my anxiety isn’t going to fix itself and I probably won’t wake up tomorrow and be depression free, just because I’ve written this post. But it’s a start, right?
The advice I was given on Twitter was exactly what I needed to hear. I talk all the time about how important it is to talk about mental health. And it is! I can’t stop doing that, just because it’s difficult. Everything about depression and anxiety is difficult.
And writing this has actually helped. Just to be writing again, and publishing something honest, is really refreshing. Hopefully, I’ll be able to write about what’s actually going on in my head soon. Hopefully, I’ll find my blogging mojo and get back into a decent posting schedule. And, hopefully, when I do, my lovely readers will still be there to read my posts.