Word of the Week – Excited

After writing my first Word of the Week post last Friday (which you can read here) I decided it would be good to keep going. I like reflecting on my week and it feels really good to get back into writing regularly.

I’ve gone back and forth a bit on what this week’s word should be, but recent relaxing of the lockdown rules means that I am

Excited!

I haven’t written about all the things that have changed since last year, but one of them was the breakdown of my marriage. I don’t want to dwell on that. Not only because it was a painful time and it’s obviously a very personal situation, but also because I’ve moved on. I’m happy, ex-Mr Becca is happy, the twins are happy. For the most part, it’s all very amicable and we’re pretty good at this co-parenting thing. It’s not perfect and there are definitely some issues, but we’re doing what we can to make it work.

At the beginning of this year, I met someone new! We’ll call him Muscles. Before I met him, I thought I’d be alone forever. A single mum of two, in her mid-30s, low income, mental health issues… I’m a real catch! But then Muscles came along and changed everything. Very quickly, I realised I couldn’t imagine my life without him in it.

And then lockdown happened…

Obviously, we weren’t living together and it was far too soon to consider that. We both have children to consider and it would have been madness to move in together so soon.

So the last couple of months have been survived mostly by video calling and writing lists of things we want to do when the world returns to normal. The lists are getting very long.

But now I’m super excited

because the announcement in the government briefing on Wednesday means that, from tomorrow, we can form our own little support bubble. We can finally spend time together! And with our children! Muscles has met the twins briefly – from a distance – when he very kindly brought his exercise bike round for me to use (spoiler alert – I don’t use it enough), but I will be meeting his little girl for the first time tomorrow. And soon we’ll spend time with all the kids together and I can’t wait!

I feel like the first half of 2020 has been wasted waiting around for things to get back to normal. If it ever does. I can handle social distancing and not being able to eat in restaurants or go to the cinema. I’m a pro at keeping my distance in supermarkets and following the one-way system (and glaring disapprovingly at people who don’t). But what I can’t handle so well is being kept apart from the people I care about and feeling like my life is on hold. The introduction of support bubbles for single parents and adults living alone means that my life is getting closer to normal and I’m so excited to start making memories that don’t involve waving at each other over facetime.

I know that the support bubble won’t be so exciting for everyone

It isn’t perfect. I miss my friends and the rest of my family and I know that lots of people either won’t be “eligible” to form a support bubble or will be forced to choose between their favourite households to join up with… but it’s working out very nicely for me and, after a truly awful 2019, I’m just excited that things are finally starting to go my way!

This post has been added to Raisie Bay’s Word of the Week linky. If you want to see how other bloggers have summed up their week, you should check it out.